I'm being made to take a battering class

Not looking for judgement but I got arrested for domestic violence a couple weeks ago. I'm not typically a violent person. My husband tends to do a lot of stupid things and makes stupid decisions. He's a huge procrastinator and also tends to ignore instructions. Like how to put something together he will do it his way instead of following instructions. The most I've ever done is smack him. And not hard. I'm 5'5 and he's 6'2 and has almost 100 pounds on me. So it wasn't in a way to hurt or control him. Just to express my annoyance.

What happened is I got drunk a couple weeks ago. I should have learned not to mix liquor with red bull because it's not my alcohol. I was irritated because my husband will start projects and then never finish them. He begged me to let him remodel our guest room. And guess what he started painted it and hasn't finished and more or less abandoned that project. I have been annoyed and he was playing video games. I told him he could go work on that guest room. He said he would eventually and then I started saying how he never finishes anything. He starts things and wants them done his way but never does anything with it. We argued and he tried to leave the house. We have 2 kids so I didn't want him leaving when we had kids here. I got in front of the door. He pushed me out the way and I just saw red. I'm not proud of what I've done and I've apologized. He didn't call the cops on me. The neighbors did because they heard it. They took one look at my husband and immediately decided I was the aggressor which I was. I had a court date and they want me to go to battering class because they used a 10 year old charge I had against me for an old boyfriend to prove I have a pattern when that was 10 years old. I understand I was wrong. I just feel unsafe because most battering classes are filled with men. Men twice my size who could hurt me. I'm not saying I don't want to face my consequences. I just feel like they should also take into account my safety.

I know someone who tried to strangle their wife and was just sent to a battering class. Also I wasn't dismissing what I did as a slap. I was saying when I'm annoyed with him I usually just slap him. That was the first time I ever truly got violent and I was also under the influence. I shouldn't have mixed liquor with red bull because I don't do well with it.