If you had the chance would you take it even with the risks?

So I met my guy in 2022, we were fwb and hunged out twice every week since and in Jan 2023 I tested positive, miscarried in March, May I tested positive and had babygirl in January 2024. After I got pregnant again I distanced myself bc I didn’t want to lose another baby again. We spoke here and there during the pregnancy. after the baby, he saw her once and then he ended up leaving the state, I put him on child support. He’s been ignoring the letters. Mostly bc he doesn’t really He we didn’t speak for about 8 months. But in August he texted that he was back and wanted to see the baby and I ignored him. In November he texted again, and this time I decided that I couldn’t take my babys father away from her and I let him see her once a week. Hidden from my parents. Two weeks go by and then we started seeing each other too. So now we went to him now seeing the baby once and once we would see each other by ourselves.

We started talking about marriage and being together. He doesn’t want me with anyone else, I’ve been going to his house and he said not just anyone can come to his house. Two weeks ago i stayed the night Saturday. We got to talking we admitted that we loved each other and I told him seriously that if we were going to be together that he needs to talk to my parents bc that’s what they want. I don’t want him to talk to them but outta respect to them I owe it to them. I’ve been told so many times that if he wanted to he would’ve found the way. But here’s been times that I wanted to and didn’t just bc.

Last night around 8 he told me to go over and stay the night and I respond no. That if I did I would get kicked out from my parents house. He said that I’ll have him so why am I worried.

I’m worried bc I can’t afford a apartment by myself which is why I’m still at my parents house. I know if I told my mom and stepdad that I was talking to him and he was in my daughters life they would get mad bc he had done me wrong before. glad that he’s in her life, mad that he’s in mine.

I have the chance on making my own little family for my daughter but I’m scared of losing my family.

If I choose him, I think they will kick me out or at least cause me problems whenever I go out if it’s not me being at work.

Would you chose to start your own family in thoughts if bettering your babies future or not even try just for the sake of being able to be at home and safe.

Obviously this is not the full story but just the gist of it. I’m at work rn.