My daughter was born 6 days ago and ppd started immediately at the hospital. Daytime I am almost fine but once the sun starts setting I become instantly depressed/ scared…

Today’s the first day I admitted to my partner how I’m feeling and broke down crying hysterically.

At night we take “shifts” I sleep 8-12:30 (I can not sleep any longer and wake up everytime I hear her cry even tho I sleep in a different room) I watch her 1-5 and during that time I’m terrified because I am so exhausted and afraid of falling asleep on her..

She’s been having trouble breathing and doctor said she has really bad congestion so we do not sleep at all at night..

once the sun starts coming up I start to feel better.

I’m scared of taking care of her alone gives me anxiety?

Also breastfeeding is taking a toll,

I tried hand expressing 30min only to get 5ml..

I try latching her and then I give her formula 1oz

But if I’m not breast feeding I’m hand expressing if not that I’m trying to pump. I get NOTHING from pumping.. I’m just tired..

Anyone please help with any suggestions..

with my first daughter I ignored everything and it was so bad I was afraid of myself. I didn’t know “ppd” that was 11 years ago.

Now I do not want to go through that again.. thank you