Taking medication for morning sickness

So I am 8w3d and I have been suffering with morning sickness for 3 weeks. I can only eat about five safe foods or it comes back up and I constantly feel very nauseous. It’s really effecting my quality of life and it’s making me completely useless at work and at home. I’ve tried all the usual remedies, ginger, acupressure bands etc. My midwife said I didn’t need to suffer like this and that my GP would prescribe me something to stop the sickness.

But I don’t want to take it. Not because I’m worried about the safety of it or anything, but because no matter how miserable this is making me, it is my only indication that I’m pregnant. If the sickness goes away, will it feel real? Will I feel pregnant? How will I know if it goes away?

Am I being completely irrational here? Choosing to stay feeling awful because it’s my only link to this thing growing inside me?

I don’t know if I’m posting this for advice or validation that I’m not being ridiculous, but does anyone else know how I feel?