Do you think he actually feels trapped?

I’ve been in a situationship with this guy for 2 years. I feel like he is narcissistic and abusive. When we first got together he broke things off to try to be with another girl but she rejected him and he came back. I was dumb and took him because I was just SA’ed and in my feelings. At that time, I also self harmed but haven’t in years. Since then, he has broken up with me and came back a bunch of times. Even when he’s gone, he’ll watch my stories, swipe up on them, make comments about what I’m doing, who I’m with, what I’m wearing, etc. He yells and calls me names. He doesn’t like any of my friends (he says he “doesn’t trust me to make good friends”, so he doesn’t even like me making NEW friends either) or how I dress. If he asks me something, he “expects” thorough, exact answers every time. I’ve tried to just ghost him but every time, he blew up my phone until I came back. He bullied me into quitting my job last summer over a guy.

A few months ago my dad died in front of me and, obviously, I haven’t been the same since. Things have been rocky with us. Last night we argued and I felt strongly enough in the moment that I said I might be done. This morning we talked and he told me that he hoped I was going to break up with him and how he’s only staying because HE’S “trapped”. 😐 He said he thinks that if he leaves my mental health will crash and I’ll kill myself. But I’ve asked him SO many times before if he wants to be done and he says NO. 😐 AND I was going to let him end it but then he all of a sudden wants me to come over, calling me romantic nicknames, and ASKING WHY IM CONFUSED. I explained why I was confused and he said “do you want me to take it back then?” I said “huh? I didn’t say that” and he said “ok so shut up then”. But when he’s broken up with me before, I’ve never self harmed over it or anything at all. And if all of this is just bc you’re “trapped” then why do you care about what I’m doing, my friends, etc. Why do YOU come back all the time? Idk if maybe he’s trying to play like “poor me”? Or confuse me so that I don’t leave ?