Husband had been lying to me

I started dating a guy when I was 7 weeks pregnant with my first. ai had been drugged and sexually assaulted which resulted in pregnancy at only 18. We got married 3 years into our relationship. After getting married health problems put him in the hospital for a while. They tried to find out what was wrong and discovered he had undiagnosed AIDs. They were convinced it had been ravaging his body for a while. When I confronted him about it he wasnt truthful and was very deceptive. He attempted to lead me to believe it came from my assault. After testing confirmed I was negative, I did a deep dive. I found out he had homosexual relations for probably a year before he met me, up until a couple months before he met me(as far as I have evidence of). I did a deeper dive, and found he had been posting about finding a male, or a couple to go do sexual things with about a couple months before we married and a couple months after. This lead to trauma between us, distrust, and ultimately me deciding I no longer wanted to be with someone like that. He was still unwell and I decided I couldnt tell him during that time, but I did start looking for another opportunity(not my greatest moment). I met up with a few people and was seriously debating a relationship with someone when things got physical. Ultimately we had to move for his health reasons and I couldnt afford to stay there with my daughter on our own. We were already in debt from his hospital stays. We got to where we were moving to, and my communication with anyone Id met ceased. He found out and freaked and I told him I was done. I was ready to walk away. I know Im gonna get a lot of judgement for this but he threatened suicide and taking my child away, ultimately I decided Id rather gi through years of relationship therapy than walk away. (Something I swore Id never put up with) Fast forward not even a year and I was pregnant with his child. Everything seemed to be going well, but we never got into therapy. Im now pregnant with his second biological child and realized I have resentment towards him. For being untruthful,deceptive, and manipulating me into staying with him when I was ready to end it. I want to know others opinions on this. I struggle daily with depression and anxiety from underlying issues, but these issues with him have not helped that. I still dont trust him completely, but I do love him(most of the time). Its hard because weve been together for a while, but I also fear hes thinking hes "trapped" me because we have kids. If I ever find evidence of him stepping out of our marriage again Id love to say id be done and leave but im not sure. Anyways what are others feelings on this situation? I dont get to talk about it at all so any advice or comments greatly appreciated. .........EDITED TO ADD: As I said the DOCTORS say hes had it longer than hes known me. Yes we had unprotected sex throughout the relationship and yes I was and still am negative. No this is not a story Im making up though I wish it was. This is my life. When we had his first biological child she had to go on a course of antiretrovirals because my Infectious Disease doctor told me it was okay to stop Prep while pregnant if his viral load stayed undetectable. I knew nothing about AIDS or HIV before this, just basic things you learn in school which by then was outdated information. Apparently now you can reverse HIV if caught in time. Unfortunately his had progressed into AIDS. His strain is resistant to the mainly prescribed antiretrovirals so they had to find a combination that worked which took time. He had several other illnesses he got that you can only really get at his age if you had undiagnosed HIV/AIDS. He is out of the AIDS zone now obviously since hes undetectable. But he will be on medication for the rest of his life. As long as Im sexually active with him I will be on medication for the rest of my life. Based off the information I found he hadnt stepped out and actually done anything with anyone while we were originally dating. I cant be 100% because we werent on the same phone plan so I didnt have access to text messages/phone calls and things could have been deleted. Yes I understand what I did was very wrong. Im not making any excuses. I had a lot weighing down on me and he portrayed himself as very homophobic and still does though he obviously had anal sex with males, and still needs that stimulation or I fear he will step out to find it again. After his medical problems and him finding text messages in my phone to someone else, I found out he had been communicating with a local male for about 6 months. It started before my childs birthday I found evidence of them talking on her birthday while we were both at her party. Shes young. This continued even after I found out I was pregnant by him and he knew. The deception and sneakiness has not stopped. I havent found evidence of him still talking to this man but the fact that he sought him out and said he would meet up with him worried me and still does. He has to get regularly checked for more common STD and STIs due to his diagnosis even though he claims hes not engaged in risky behaviour to his doctors. He has not tested positive for anything else. I didnt step out until I had been lied to for basically the entirety of our relationship, him trying to gaslight me into believing I gave it to him, or saying it couldve came from a toilet seat or toilet paper people stick needles into. After all that then me finding the reason he has it, him denying it and saying hes not gay, and telling em several times hed kill himself if i left then I finally decided I was done. I tried to tell him multiple times but he always found a way of pitying me into staying with him. All in all Im not lying though I wish this wasnt my situation and wouldnt wish it on anyone, and still have no idea how I didnt contract it.