Today has really drained me. Nothing in particular happened, but I feel so hopeless. I've been spending too much time lingering on all these changes I have to make to my life and at this point it just doesn't seem worth it. Which I know sounds awful. I'm still in love and excited. Just depressed. Which I've struggled with since I was 13 or so... I worried. Worried that I just won't be good enough soon enough.