Just.. brokenhearted

I met a guy on a dating app..

we hit it off, we had good chemistry, a great connection, we were talking for hours both digitally and physically.

I loved everything about him.

He said he loved our connection and my looks and the person that I am..

and that overwhelmed him, he wasn't ready for that after his last relationship.

so now I'm left heartbroken. And I don't know what to do with anything.

I've been crying myself to sleep for weeks.

I don't know what to do about this.. I can't keep crying over this guy.

(ps:I posted earlier "I feel so loved 🥰")

@Casey

It's the only time I've got to myself.. I've been dealing with work and my toddler, been on outings with my friends even talked about it with my friends all normal..

I see where he's coming from and it's healthy of him the way he dealth with it.. which just makes it worse, I guess..

Where I finally loved a good man who loved me back and he's just not available because of what he's dealing with.

I just really felt like he was going to be my person.

It just really broke my heart.

@G

That is kinda rude.. We spent so many hours talking (irl as on the phone), I learned about the things that interest him and how he thinks and how he is for his kids and we talked about history and politics and life and old buildings and sunsets and so many things and there wasn't a thing that I didn't like about him, there wasn't a thing.. anything... that would make me doubt just a bit, nothing that would make me feel like "Oh, I'll have to compromise here" or "That's not my favorite thing"

I liked his gentle demeanor, while he's still a strong and steady person. He was also very thoughtful like.. I'm sensory driven and he would take that into account when I stayed over at his place.. I was really falling in love with him. all of him. of what I saw anyway.

You may think that is ridiculous but it is what it is. We weren't officially in a relationship but we did establish that we were exclusive.