Talking to a therapist

So I had a really rough week last week. My therapist knows this bc I literally cried in session. I wasn’t in the mindset to tell her everything that happened. Therefore, we decided to talk about stuff in our next session. I want to first preface this by saying I ultimately just bought a burrito from chipotle. However, I was scared to go home bc I didn’t know what I would do. All that was running rough my mind all day was do I drink a 6 pack, take some gummies, or other stuff that would’ve caused temporary damage. How do I approach that topic especially since she would definitely ask what the third option is.

It’s cliche, but my biggest fear is being put in a hospital. In the back of my head I know she wouldn’t, but still a scary thought.