Currently miscarrying …

I’m just looking for support, a shoulder, anything I guess? This is my second loss. My first was a chemical so it was very different. This time around, I’m 7 weeks but baby stopped developing at 5w5d. I had a feeling since I tested positive that I’d lose this baby. Call it mother’s intuition or whatever, I just couldn’t see myself delivering this baby. I knew it wouldn’t stick. But still, it didn’t make losing it any easier. And I was absolutely not prepared for HOW a miscarriage would go. I knew there would be bleeding but the clots are pretty traumatic. Every time I pee I find myself wondering if my baby is in the toilet 😭😭😭 I didn’t really tell anyone I was pregnant yet (this was our 4th baby. Completely unplanned.) so I don’t have many people to lean on for support. My husband is trying but bless him, he doesn’t understand. My mom….isn’t really being helpful. I just feel really alone right now and it’s making an already crappy situation so much worse. So if you read this, thank you — because I needed to get that off my chest and into the open ❤️❤️❤️

Also my heart goes out to all the women who suffer loss after loss because I cannot imagine doing this over and over again.