Struggling

I just found out I’m pregnant. We just completed our third IUI and were about to start ivf at Shady Grove. My nurse said they wanted a level over 100 and mine was 108 at 15dpo so she was happy with that. I’ve had 3 losses and it’s been 2 years of no conception since the last loss…I’m struggling mentally with the anticipation of losing another because I don’t want to become attached to something that could just go away 😔 This is such a hard journey. I’m trying to stay busy and pretend it’s not happening because it’s the only coping mechanism right now.