My mother...

My mother and i do have a pretty cloee relationship, but something she said to me got under my skin, made me feel some type of way. I talk to her aboult almost everything. She knows me and the husband are on this TTC journey, she knows we have been trying 5 months now and knows we have an appt to a fertility dr. I felt defeated again this month not concieving. Told her i thoughy about just giving up and also cacelling my appt. She said well maybe this is gods way of saying you dont need a baby, yall have enough kids to take care of. I have one, he has 3, we have none together. I said god has nothing to with getting pregnant. She didnt respond. Here im thinking dam would you tell a women that lost her pregnancy " well maybe thats gods way of saying you are not meant to have a baby". Like dam if you can tell me its gods way of telling no baby for you, what did you say to both my sister in laws when they lost pregbancy. Or to my brother when he foundout he cant get his wife pregbant anymore because of his sperm. Like i swid my mom and i have a pretty close relationship but i honestly dont think she supports us having a baby, shes never supported the idea of me having another baby ever. Telling me the one i hace is enough. But shes never said that shit to my brothers as far as i know. I know she always worried about me the most becayse my brothers and sisters arr married and have their persin and their life. I hace always had my life, and now have my person and we are good and they love him too. So idky shes very against this. Just needed to vent. Lol