Chemical loss :(

I was on the depo for a little under a year and went off of a little under a year ago, we went through a chemical pregnancy towards the end of February into March. He hadn’t rly talked to me about it and he doesn’t seem to count it as a pregnancy at all. I miscarried a couple years ago and went on birth control shortly after. I’ve been off for a year in June and I’m kinda just in the “whatever happens, happens” state of mind, but at the same time, I rly want to be a mommy so bad and after this it just seems impossible. I’m still young (19) but this is my second loss. How do I not give up hope? :(