Pregnant with my 3rd and feeling hopeless

I am expecting my 3rd child this December and I am feeling overwhelmed, ungrateful and depressed.

This pregnancy came unexpectedly.

I currently don’t have insurance because I missed open enrollment at my job (my partner can not add me to his since we aren’t married), my current vehicle is not big enough for 3 kids, our home is small and we won’t have enough room for the baby, my daughter just started preschool and I feel like I’m going backwards.

This coming baby and my oldest will probably share a birthday if not they will be just a few days apart which I feel is not fair for my oldest. I feel so grateful for the favor of GOD blessing us with another child but I also feel as if I didn’t really want this pregnancy at least not now. I feel awful saying that because I know a lot of women desire a child of their own more than anything and here I am sad over being pregnant.

I have had really bad morning sickness and already feel overwhelmed with the idea of another child.

I feel lost and hopeless