Scared to take the test

Just needing to vent. I'm 34 years old. I'm currently 8 days late for my period. I've never been this late. For the last couple of days I've been nauseous, light-headed, sore heavy feeling boobs, feeling tired a lot, I've also had lower back pain and mild cramps that come and go. I've had a couple other symptoms that's an indication. I've googled a lot of symptoms for early pregnancy signs and I have them. Me and my daughter's father have been trying to have a second baby for 10 years with no luck. I really feel like this is it but I'm too scared to take a pregnancy test. Every time I think about going to buy one my anxiety hits the roof. I just don't want to see that negative sign. My mind has been all over the place. I made a promise to myself if nothing happens by next week I'm going to just suck it up and just buy a test. I'm praying this is finally it though 🙏🏾