nervous about having sex with someone i really like

so…

i haven’t had sex in over 2 years + this might sound weird but i wasn’t even into the person last person i dated/had regular sex with all that much. any other dating experiences i’ve had haven’t gone anywhere or lasted a short period of time. i’ve been talking to this guy every day for nearly a month and i really really like him. he’s super sweet + we’ve been on like 4 dates in person now. we’ve called on the phone and played video games a lot. we’ve kissed (super innocent vibes) and i was so nervous even doing that. like i feel like i’m bad and just out of practice idk. i really like him and it’s driving me a little mad.

i’m going to see him again soon and i think he wants to sleepover which i’m okay and comfortable with bc i don’t feel pressured around him. we’re going at a really good pace. just cuddling and innocent kissing rn. i’m terrified of having sex with him and being vulnerable with him in that way bc i’ve grown so close to him in a short span of time. i really like him and it’s been so long since ive had sex and i keep thinking what if i’m horrible at it or he doesn’t like what he sees. i’ve also never had sex with someone i genuinely really really liked. i’m not sure how i want to go about telling him this.

it’s also worth saying that my first ever relationship which was 5-6 years ago now was super toxic and i was coerced to do sexual things i didn’t want to do. so my relationship with sex is a bit fucked up where anytime i’m alone with anyone and there could be a romantic vibe i’m assuming they must want sex from me or that i have to do that. i’ve had healthier sex since but i really dissociated a lot to be able to enjoy it and since it was never with someone i really liked that much it didn’t matter as much. i really like this guy and can see myself being with him for a long time. idk when ill be ready for sex i’m trying to live in the moment more and let go. any tips?