Angry, irritable, sad, unmotivated & given up.

6 weeks ago tomorrow I lost my baby girl. I was 20 weeks. I'm angry, depressed, irritable, withdrawn, short tempered, sad all in one. Does anyone relate? My marriage has hit rock bottom, though I know a lot of it has to do with me shutting down but am I the only one who has reacted like this with the loss? I have lost any desire to pick myself back up & literally just want to stay curled up in a ball & ignore the world. I have no motivation to reconnect with my husband or anyone else. Counseling felt like a waste and did nothing for me so I just quit going. I feel like I'm suffocating and can't breathe some days too. I feel like damaged goods but also feel like my whole self has been broken. I used to have faith n hope & appreciated the idea of them but now resent it when I see or hear people say keep faith, keep hope... what for, to be hurt again 😢😢😢😢