Been off work for 3 months after having a miscarriage, I now have bad anxiety and worry my boyfriend will leave me

I was just over 10 weeks along when I had a miscarriage. Days leading up to it I told the doctor I was spotting and it was becoming more red but they couldn’t get me in for an examination or scan for 2 days, the next day after work I went to have a wee and it was just blood I also had the worst cramps and decided to go to hospital. My neighbour took me and I went with my boyfriend and my 8 year old son ( who we took to meet my sister to watch him ).

I was in more pain than I’d been in before, worse than labour and it felt like someone was grabbing my uterus and pulling it down then all of a sudden the pain just .. vanished. I remember thinking that’s odd why has it stopped and I felt a small gush happen then it got worse and worse until it was just constant and I couldn’t stop it I was crying my eyes out. I had a super absorbent pad on and it went through it and my trousers and coat, the neighbours towels and more spare pads I remember seeing 18 minutes left to get to the hospital and thought I was going to die. They examined me there and confirmed I’d had a miscarriage and passed the baby in the car.

Since then I’ve had chest pains, shortness of breath, dizziness and other things happen to me I’ve been in a&e 6 times and they’ve all said the tests from X-rays and bloods are normal , apart from having low iron. They are ruling that I have really bad anxiety and stress and have advised I get counselling because I’ve had such a traumatic experience.

I did feel like I was being fobbed off because the physical pain I feel is very real which the doctor said can be the case with anxiety. My mind since has spiralled more and I just feel guilty for dragging people along for company when I go to hospital or for them to watch my son while I get checked out. I fear that it will become too much for my boyfriend and that he might one day decide to leave.

I hate being unwell and he is very understanding of everything that’s happened and ensures that everything is fine but my mental health is getting worse, I’ve taken time off work as I’m not fit to return yet and my OCD is having a flare up as well. I’m hardly eating as I never feel hungry and again he’s never seen me at my worst and worry again that he might just get to a point and want to leave.

We’ve been together for 2 and a half years and we live together.