I really just want this. Im sorry just a Rant!

I have meet the perfect person! My boyfriend is the best and he loves me so much , he would go to the moon and back for me! He makes my heart so worm and treats me like a queen! I lost my baby some yrs ago and I never really tried for pregnancy again , I mean don't get me wrong I have thought I was and never do I get a positive. I'm scared and I just really want this for me and him so we can share something so special. This would both be our first. He really wants a baby and this would fill that hole in my heart from my first lost. I have the best boyfriend and I just wanna have my family something I always wanted something we both want! I have pregnancy symptom's! I think when you have thought you have been pregnant for yrs and your not you just know when your body is different , maybe I'm scared to think I'm right cause this is so similar to my last pregnancy! I have 2 days till AF and I will be testing. I just don't know how to feel.