after losing 4 babies in the last 2 years... im trying to find the hope and joy in thimgs but everytime I walk past a baby clothes rack at walmart or see a new mother holding their babies or hearing a soon to be mom talk about their new found joy I become alittle bit sadder inside and I feel like alittle piece of my heart and soul falls to the ground .... I have been to doctors and they are begining to give less and less hope to me that I will ever carry a child of my own full term and healthy.... my husband is strong when I cant be but I can tell that he is deeply saddened by the issues we are facing ..... if anyone has any tips on how to keep pushing forward for this griving mother please comment .......