Pretty Sure I'm Out and it's Got Me Down :(

So I'm pretty sure af is coming :( I'm due 1/15 and everything that usually happens to me right before I get my period is happening. Told myself I wouldn't get upset this cycle if she comes bc I will have another shot but idk I just want to cry 😔. What makes it worse is we went to our friends baby shower this weekend and I'm completely excited got them but couldn't help it feel a little sad. Especially because I would have been 6 months pregnant with my own baby right now. Sorry I'm ranting just feel so down and cant really talk to anyone about it. Oh and did I meantion my best friend is 4 months pregnant now? Happy for her too but ugh. I know my time will come but it's still disheartening.