I was so excited I was going on my second month with out af and when my breast started to hurt I thought yes we finally did it I'm gonna be a mommy. We got a hpt to finally test this morning and when I got up to urinate I was so excited and peed in the cup, I was never so happy in my life at that very second...... Then my heart dropped I began to cry when I saw the blood. It's hard to function after you get your hopes up so high.

My hubby has been a huge support through all the bfns and heart break. When we have to wait to test. He has been my rock through it all and the reason it was so hard for this one was because he heard me crying through the wall and came in to hold me and when I looked up he was crying too. He just kept saying it's ok, it's gonna happen we just have to keep or faith in God he'll give us our little blessing when he's ready. He pulled me into the room and held me. He whispered I just want to call in and hold you all day now.

Seeing him get emotional like that made me see that he wants a baby just as much as I do. He doesn't talk about it very often and even though this morning was rough I'm happy cuz I know he'll go everything he can to make this process a happy one. I love my husband so very much and this day just brought us closer.