Dealing with my first miscarriage

Two weeks ago the doctors couldn't find a heartbeat. They measured the baby 7 weeks 4 days which is about right if I'm guessing I'm 8 weeks. They wanted to be sure so I had a follow up appointment at 10 weeks to find the heartbeat or growth. I went to the doctors yesterday and the baby did pass away and I missed my miscarriage. My uterus was swollen on one side with blood. I didn't think I had it in me to help force my baby out but I choose to because carrying the baby was harder than anything. I took cytotec last night and all night long I was in pain. This may be too much for your ears but I want to share my story. The clots started and it was something out of a horror movie. I thought the baby would of broken down and came out but that wasn't the case. I passed my baby in the sac and all. I wasn't prepared to see that, to see my baby at the stage it died and that was the last thing I could cope with before I felt numb. I can't cry because I hurt too much and I can't eat because I hurt I don't have the need to move out of bed. This is the first time I lost a baby and I know it's tearing my husband up as much as it's tearing me up. I didn't opt for the d and c which I think that maybe I should have. This is going to be tough when I was exspecting my baby in August and now all I feel is emptiness. How long did you wait before you tried again after a miscarriage?