I had my first mc jan 11th and i think ive finally got it in my head that im not going to be a mommy anytime soon that i wont see my little bean in there. Its still hard but im doing better each day. I was only about 4 to 5 wks along. But my SO wants to start trying again as soon as the dr gives the okay but i dont know if im ready to try yet im not sure i want to possibly experience it again. Im scared of it happening again. I would love to have my own baby though. Just not sure what i want to do. Just venting