Squirt but no orgasm

First, squirting is basically my pissing myself? And second, I've never in my life had an orgasm (anything you could give me on that would be nice to) but I've squirted a lot. The guy I'm seeing gets really pleased with himself and is glad "he's making me feel really good" but I'm not, I'm not getting that peek at all ... I don't have the heart to tell him. What's wrong with me? X