I'm 19 & I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder & borderline personality disorder for the past 3 years. my mom & family always knew there was something wrong with me. I've never kept friends, jobs or boyfriends. I've tried to end my life 2 times & have been hospitalized 3 times in the past year for extreme break downs. I'm constantly depressed & unhappy. it's starting to ruin my relationship with my mom & my boyfriend of 2 years that just recently proposed to me. I've been on all sorts of medicines & seen 8 different therapists. I hate my body, my mind & my life. please someone give me some rye of advice that isn't bullshit or something like "it'll get better soon"