He is confusing me !

I want a baby however my husband says he doesnt .... he refuses to use any form of contaception and i dont want to gain more weight by using the pill and such ... he knows i would love another child and he refuses to let me use any form of contaception .... what does he want ? Does he want a baby ? As he refuses me the pill and implant in my arm ? He knows im desperate for a baby i even spoke to my doctor abouy having an implant but also anti depressants to help me deal with such a loss but he says no ... i just dont understand my man

.. someone interperate what he wants please ?