Venting

So annoyed af showed. Im so sick of getting excited every month thinking it's my month and it never is. I just want my first baby.  I'm tired of crying every month when I'm not pregnant. I'm also tired of doing everything I can to get pregnant and then nothing working. I'm sick of seeing pregnant people everywhere and not being pregnant my self. I'm sick of everyone telling me quit thinking about it and it will happen. When I want it so bad it's all I think about. Sorry I'm just really upset. ???????????