The struggles of TTC and staying positive ❤️

Tessa • 33 years old, happily married, mom to the SWEETEST toddler boy and baby girl in the whole world, and owner/creator of Tiny Threads. 💙👶🏻🌈
My husband and I started TTC last April and I will be the first to admit that I was naïve and thought I would simply stop birth control and be pregnant a month later. After all, I've heard only about a thousand times, from my mom (and others), that that's how it happened for them. We're only about 8 months into trying and it's already been a roller coaster of emotions. You tell yourself that you're not going to get your hopes up... But every month, you do. 
This past month was the first time I actually allowed myself to believe I might get a BFP. As it took 6 months to get my cycle regulated (from 44 days gradually down to 28), and I got a "peak" positive OPK, and we were very active... But then 7 days later AF showed up. I thought it was implantation bleeding, but when it stuck around for 4 days, I realized it was my period. Took a pregnancy test today hoping that maybe, just maybe, I was one of the weird ones who bleeds like a period even though pregnant, and it was BFN. 😔 
Being able to read other women's posts about their trials and tribulations on this forum has helped me feel like I'm not alone. And I hope that anyone who stumbles on this post will know that they aren't alone either. Baby dust to each and every single one of you that keeps pushing forward and holding on to hope. ❤️