I'm scheduled for my csection tomorrow morning. My last was an emergency csection 8 years ago and it feels so weird to know that I am going I for this surgery and coming out with a new baby! I have been a nervous wreck since last night, just looking at all the baby stuff and freaking out that by tomorrow I will have this baby to care for. I'm so ready to not be pregnant, but the reality of being a new mom again is just setting in! It's been so long since I've had a newborn And this is my husbands first time having a baby and I'm just like, oh god how is he gonna handle it?! My older daughters father could not take the pressure of a baby and split, not that my husband would do that, but I know a newborn is stressful and can put your relationship to a real test. But mostly I am terrified of going into surgery! Knowing I am being cut into and that I will be awake for it OMG. Everything happened so fast the first time I barely remember it. This time I'm so fully aware. I have an anxiety/panic disorder so I'm scared I will freak out and have a panic attack. When I think about getting a spinal my heart races and I want to cry! So all around my nerves are crazy right now! I just needed to vent and maybe hear some encouragement because I am really freaking out!