Ughhh so I'm in a situation I don't know what to do. I love my husband but he has cheated on my many of times. I took him back everytime. I know it wasn't smart but he was my first everything and I was dealing with depression the whole time so I was afraid to leave. A few years went by and everything was good. I got pregnant by my birth control failing but still happy. He left me a month before I was due cause he wanted a "break". We all know what that means... I wanted so bad to leave but I was just laid off my job and had no money or nothing to make it on my own. He realized he wanted to be with me after our son was a month old... But I was over him. Wanted nothing to do with him but we ended it, just staying married and living together until we could afford to go our own ways. Things got really good between us, and suprise, we were back together. Ever since this all I have the hardest time trusting him. But the last three years have Been wonderful. No cheating, been a wonderful husband all around. But he's been gone for a week for a business trip and I find it so much more peaceful without him. I actually grew to dislike him and all this anger came back about him leaving and cheating.... I don't want him to Come home. I feel betrayed. Why after years and years do these feelings come back? I don't think I will ever get over him cheating so I think I might file for divorce. I can't go on knowing he did this to me. It just haunts me.... Everytime he goes out with friends, goes out of town, leaves the house,... I think he's cheating. Help