Rainbow baby mamas

Amaya • 💙Blessed with 4 boys! One angel baby girl who we lost at 15 weeks pregnant 👼
I lost my last baby (Honor Abigail) at the end of my 15th week almost a year ago--I'm entering my 15th week today with our rainbow baby. 
I am so nervous, anxious and very emotional. I just want to get through this week and hopefully I will breathe a little easier after that. 
​I've been obsessed with using the Doppler to find baby's heartbeat and today I've been very preoccupied with finding the heartbeat. 
​No one around me has been through this so I don't have many People to talk to who can relate. 
​(The picture is of my last baby's hand after delivery.  She was perfect and I think of her everyday <3 )