My and my husband have been together for 4 years. We experienced a miscarriage in our first year and have been TTC on and off every since. We have had issues with him being flirty with women in the past but recently things have been going amazing. We have been having lots of great sex and have just been all over each other. At the same time I have been dealing with a lot of body issues. I've put on about 40 pounds since we first met. I feel like he doesn't like the way my body looks now but he says he loves it, I think he just says that to make me happy. Anyway, I have caught him watching porn again and when he watches he searches for girls that are skinny. It hurts me so bad. He said that he watches just to get ideas for us but if that was the case then why does he always lie and hide it from me? It's driving me crazy. The fact that he wants to look at other women that look nothing like me. It's adding so much stress to me. Feeling so unattractive while TTC. Anyone else having something similar going on?