Sigh..

I was raped last year and have been going through boughts of self harm and suicidal thoughts that fail to disappear.

I am on medication and seeing a therapist so each of those are working, I just have to work on myself.

I attempted to kill myself in September and went to the adolescent psych unit after that.

I am four months clean as of today and boy it is so difficult. ..

I am having a rough patch right now and would absolutely love to cut, but I don't want to start over... I am just painting and listening to music instead and online shopping.

I actually just bought two Bravelets that the charity went for sexual assault and suicide. So I feel good about that.

It is just harder than other days sometimes..