Is this wrong? 😔

I had an abortion due to failed birth control, my age and my relationship last year - since then (June)  till around November I cried constantly and have struggled to deal with it especially as none of my family know ... However I'm finding the way to cope for me is planning my future family , from baby names, outfits, bedrooms even they're out of school activities? I sometimes even place my hands in my stomach admiring that one day a life I can care for will be there inside of me. Is it wrong to dream of a child when I aborted my first pregnancy?!?! I don't mean dreaming of a child now as I'm still the same age and same position etc but I'm mean in the future ? 😔