New Epileptic Mom

Sarah
Hey guys, 
I've had epilepsy for 6 years now. My seizures were under control.. Until I got pregnant. I'm about 5 weeks along. My mom has had 4 kids with a severe case of epilepsy and we all came out fine. Anyways, cliff notes version, I got pregnant last May, they found a cyst. I confronted my OBGYN and he said everything was fine and that my baby would be perfectly healthy and the cyst wouldn't grow. He lied, I lost my baby boy and the cyst grew to be 13 inches and 20 pounds. Had surgery everything is fine. Less then 2 months later I got pregnant and now im worried. Sorry for the babble just nervous right now for my child. Is anyone else on here epileptic...?