My husband has been mentally and physically abusing me for four years, I don't know how to get away from him other than the shelters which don't sound appetizing... I don't work because he gets too jealous when I work with other people "people" just other men. My babies are one-year-old and three-year-old any advice on what to do!!!!? Please do not be cruel as I am already beat up enough. No one knows what it's like to be in an abusive relationship until you're in it and trapped. Trust me! I did not think highly of women who stayed in relationships like I'm in before. Now I find myself here and knowing exactly how those women feel. I feel horrible for calling those women dumb but honestly I feel like I'm one of those dumb women now. I find myself making up excuses for him and why he's so mean to me. I even find myself taking the blame. What the fuck is wrong with me....