Where do I start?!?!

Kenzie • Just tracking my cycle. Dog mom and always on the go!
Because of birth control I've been on, I've gained over 20 pounds. I was a little overweight before this anyways. I've never been this big and feel so disgusted when I look in the mirror. I've told myself the first 15-20 pounds I lose, I'll get my hair cut and colored. But... I HAVE NO MOTIVATION!! I don't understand why I know I have to lose weight and hate my body yet im too lazy to do anything. Where do I start? Do I do exercises in my home or run at a local park or something else? (Don't want to do a Gym...Im broke 😊) I need lots of help lol. Thanks!