Just needing a place to talk

I had to have a surgery, My little Bit was growing in somewhere other than my uterus. The doctor called it an ectopic pregnancy...  It was just a big word he kept saying . Next thing I know I'm being told to keep me healthy I have to terminate my pregnancy.  I don't know if I really understand what happened in those two days , hubbys been supportive. Yet now I just feel alone. I'm always lashing out... I don't mean to its just I get so angry when I see others pregnant... Mostly though the main reason is My coworker is pregnant with her third kid .. But she's already had 2 abortions and now this new unwanted pregnancy and keeps going on about oh I'll just get rid of it . I just don't know how she can just give up something so precious. I never got the chance to really choose ...