How to deal with depression?

Ridlid87
Hey Ladies I am 14 weeks 1 day pregnant and I feel depression from the start of my pregnancy. Because I had 2 mc in past so I am on bed rest and doing nothing at all not even going anywhere except doctor's clinic. I am at my mother's place from the start of my pregnancy so they can take care of me better but I feel guilty because my husband is not with me and I think I should be with him also but at the same time I want my baby to be completely safe. I am very confuse and sometime I just want to cry.. I think my husband sometime get irritate by me because I am not living with him but sometime I feel he feels nothing about this and want our baby to be safe. Also when I went to home for few days he does not spend time with me he goes for work then come home eat dinner and again get out to hang out with his friends. :'( I am so confuse.