*RANT* low self esteem, feel horrible all the time

No judgements please, I just need to vent.

I'm almost 18 weeks and I feel so ugly. I'm so sick all the time, Zofran does nothing. I'm constipated to the point where I look just plain fat and nothing docs have given me has worked for that either. I'm in pain all the time. I can't even get myself to put on makeup or look pretty anymore. I definitely don't have a cute bump like a lot of other people. and I haven't felt any movements from baby yet.

I know I sound like I'm complaining and probably like a whiny brat. I do love this baby with all my heart, I just hate the way my body is betraying me