I'm hoping that in preggers this time around. We've been trying for only a couple of months, but this baby is something I need. My first child was conceived after an ex boyfriend raped me. I was in denial for that pregnancy and feel less connected to my first child. I love him so much I just feel that since I didn't like the fact I was pregnant the first time i some how feel less connected.  This baby I feel will help me emotionally connect to the new baby and my son at the same time.