I feel like a child

I feel like a kid in a business suit running a corporation I don't understand. I'm an adult according to my age but I still feel so young. I feel like I don't know anything about anything.

I'm embarrassed to say this but I don't have a license and I have never been independent. I got pregnant and saw it as a partnership. I thought I could mature with my boyfriend. Very traditional relationship he drove but that didn't teach me anything. I can't even cook. I've never gone grocery shopping alone. I'm really afraid of raising this baby. I'm trying to calm down but I don't know anything about kids. Like how will I hold it change the diaper I feel so uneducated! I want knowledge but I feel like a kid just handed the biggest responsibility of my life. How do I do this.

I had trauma in my past is why I haven't gone my full potential. I need support. I wanted to express my worries I have been reading but nothing really prepares you until you are there. I wonder how teen mothers find the strength to do this parenting.