So last year, I reconnected with an acquaintance from high school and we texted back and forth for a while. The texting turned into sexting and lasted until about September until we finally hooked up one night. It was a pretty good hookup, but it was also the night of my first kiss. We hooked up again, a month later but it wasn't as good and my first bj experience didn't go well. I BARELY heard from him after that. After this guy, I became fwb with another guy, who I lost my virginity to. I didn't even know his last name 😳. I then met another guy who wanted to be fwb. I hooked up with the first fwb twice while with the second one but we agreed to part ways. I've been frequently hooking up with my second fwb for a while now and had caught feelings for him. I told him and we had a huge fight and crying session, but are back to hooking up. Also, recently the guy from high school has contacted me, asking me to sext him. The funny part is that he has a girlfriend now. And for some reason I can't say no.  I've actually hooked up with him twice now and he only asks if I'll keep it a secret. I hate myself because I feel so wrong, since he has a girlfriend but I can't seem to stop. Is it that no guy has ever wanted a relationship with me, that it makes me this way? Or does fwb just really mess with my head? I never thought I'd be this girl 🙁