Anyone on medication for depression?

Melia 🤗 • Feminist. Pro-choice. Taken. Mother to a baby girl
I've been depressed and suicidal for ten years now and I've seen multiple therapists within this time and it never really helped me. Now I'm considering medication because tonight my depression is so bad and I feel like killing myself. I feel like this isn't fair for the baby. So I want to try medication but I was wondering if the medication actually works? And some people said it made them feel disconnected and almost zombie-like. If you could also tell me your experiences with medication I'd appreciate it. Thank you