Feeling conflicted...

Joelle
I'm 38w3d and miserable. I had contractions all day yesterday and I couldn't sleep at all. They are sending me to labor and delivery today because the non-stress test I had this morning showed that while his heart rate was steady, it wasn't "peaking" like they want. Im feeling conflicted because while I'm not technically in labor, my doctor said they may decide to keep - I want him out. I'm so done, and I feel like this is my opportunity to ask to be induced. I really DIDN'T want to be induced, but my feelings may be changing. I also don't want to compromise the birth I had envisioned because I'm impatient. Help?