Been getting blood when wiping for a week, pink then brown then red then brown. Cramping back and front. 6 weeks tomorrow . Took a clear blue digital today and it says 3+ so my hormones are at the right level for 5+ weeks from first day of last period. Have an appointment Saturday at epau. Am terrified. I feel stupid and my emotions are like a roller coaster. I have 3 other children and had a miscarriage before my first. I bled with every pregnancy and the births were all pretty traumatic. I feel guilty because I already have 3 children and some people can't have any, and I feel guilty for feeling sad when I have lovely children already. I'm struggling to be optimistic but I really wanted this baby. It feels like the first time I've been pregnant all over again. I feel like such a Newby. Sorry for the babbling. Just feeling low