Dread testing!!

I'm two days late, and am usually very regular. No AF symptoms but not really any pregnancy symptoms either. I've had a bitter taste in my mouth the past three days and a little nausea but I think I'm imagining it. Anyway, I'm feeling like I should test. If it actually was positive, I'd want to be able to surprise my husband for Valentine's Day - otherwise I would wait. But am I alone in this? I absolutely DREAD testing. I want to be pregnant, I want a baby!!!! But I fear the stark white BFN. I feel like I'm working myself up to testing today but I don't have the courage.