Okay so I raised sex before marriage. I was always nervous about it because it just seemed like it would have been more naturally to be a little more sexually before saying "I do" and move in together and be expecting to have children all of a sudden. Well we were together three years and the only thing we did was kiss and hug! (Not even joking) we always wanted to do more but knew it would dissapoint our parents. Well anyway we got married about 6 months ago and we went to do it for the first time and I was shy (very shy) but I put my hand down his pants and not even joking it took me a good minute to find it. When I did I tried my hardest to keep a straight face. I have never touched a penis before this moment so I kept thinking this is it? This is what the big fuss it's over? What I waited until marriage for? Lol well after the awkward "sex" that we attempted to have (it didn't work) we just convinced ourselves that it was just new to us and that it would get better. Well naturally I turned to google and I saw normal penis and that was NOT a normal penis and now I don't know what to do. I love him to death and I don't want to sound selfish at all I just feel like I'm in a sticky situation right now . Help?