Long post; currently married 8 months been with my husband 6 years and I'm loyal to the bone, love him with all my heart however he has recently found some sort of courage to attempt to control me, his attitude towards me stinks, forever bringing me down, slagging my mum dissing her when ever I mention her.. Hits me when we get in arguements to the point I'm shaking like a leaf when we are good he's a really good husband but to the point now I believe we are broken and no matter the counselling he will never change, I have got in contact with a male friend who I've known for years he knows what I'm going through and has my back if he ever hit me again yet somehow I'm finding myself getting butterflies when I see him or see he has messaged me... I've not had this feeling for as long as I can remember even on my wedding day... I'm going out on Sunday with a few girlfriends and I invited my male friend along as friends nothing else but when I talk to him or see him I have a massive sense of security and feel so happy around him nothing is going to happen if he comes along just a few drinks and a laugh more so a catch up but I can't tell hubby as he will go through the roof - apparently I'm not allowed friends he doesn't know :/ am I being silly, having this sense of feeling around my friend yet not my husband? I don't want to break up with my husband cos as I say he's my love but I don't know how much more I can take of him treating me like crap when I don't deserve it.